How I Was So Ridiculously In Love With Myself For All The Wrong Reasons

Permission to talk about myself and how I was totally in love with myself for all of the wrong reasons;

I was one of those people who constantly talked about themselves, thought the whole world revolves around them and really didn’t listen to others when they spoke. I know you know one of those types of people or perhaps it sounds a little like yourself?

As fabulous as I thought I was, it was so superficial and it was coming from a massive ego bordering on Warwick Capper like. (For those not in Australia he is an 80’s icon who has an ego so big, if it was electricity he could light up the nation.) I was unstoppable. I had already started on my path to self discovery, personal development and growth so this was the last remaining stepping stone left.

I dominated conversation believing what I had to say was far more interesting and important then what the other person had to say. Often I only half listened because I was already thinking about what I was going to say next because I was so interesting and important. When I was walking, without a doubt everyone in the room was looking at me because I was so interesting and important. The way I did something was always the best way because I was so interesting and important.

What a pleasant selfless person that sounds like.

I am so incredibly grateful the universe has guided me to overcome that stepping stone and now feel enlightened and empowered. When I see a person like that with the same  ‘I am so interesting and important’ with an ego bordering on Warwick Capper, I am even more grateful and kind of want to laugh and say to them “do you realise just how up yourself you are?”

What changed and how did I overcome this self obsessed ridiculous undesired quality?

1. Listen- When I had a conversation with someone I actually listened to what they were saying and when my ego would jump in and want to start thinking about what I wanted to say I simply pushed it aside and continued to listen.

2. Become aware of my ego- I also realised that the voice in my head which told me ‘I was so fabulous’ wasn’t really me and it didn’t come from my heart space, it was my ego. So I began to feel with my body and not my head. (Please note this is always a work in progress)

3. Notice- I became aware of just how much I wanted to talk about myself and expected others to have the same desire.

4. Love- I loved myself for who I was inside and out, then nurtured both. I stopped judging other people and thinking or saying negative and degrading comments about other people, even in jest.

My greatest challenge has been to change the mindset of people. Mindsets play strange tricks on us. We see things the way our minds have instructed our eyes to see. Muhammad Yunus