Dear Diary,
Today I woke up totally in my head. I felt insecure, insignificant, worthless and thought what the hell am I doing with my life.
I feel stressed that every “thing” was organised then at the drop of a hat some “thing” happens and my nicely planned week turns to shit, I begin to think bad things about people and people are thinking bad things about me. Why am I crying……again?
Why are these people saying things about me and why wasn’t I invited…am I out of the loop?
God I feel like shit and why am I yelling at my children?
My head feels fuzzy and I feel like each step I take to so hard and it weighs a tonne.
Why is my ear burning are they talking about me again….why?
Excuse me why I tell myself to pull my fucking head in.
Could I possibly judge myself, criticise myself and put myself down anymore?
If I listened to my head and what my mind was telling today I would soon spiral out of control and dive into a gigantic pool of depression.
We ALL wake up some days and we feel like this and our minds are making us feel bad. At this point we have a choice.
- We can say “OMG it’s going to be a crap day” and remind ourselves all day of how tired we are, how insecure, insignificant, worthless and think what the hell am I doing with my life?” We could do that….that would be the easy solution.
- Or we can stop make our children comfortable, safe & happy then go and find a quiet room in the house and just close you eyes and breathe. Just take one breath at a time, let the thoughts pass through your mind don’t judge them just let them pass until you have no thoughts and you focus on one breath at a time. Now focus on the energy your body the feeling….not your mind let that go. Think about your main energy source, I always feel it in my stomach but everyone draws their energy from a different place. Doesn’t matter where it is as long as it isn’t in your head. Go for a run and let it all go just focus on putting one foot in front of the other.
The latter is harder however it is much more satisfying and it takes more control. It is only for people who want to change and be a better person and not settle for feeling shitty and thinking that’s the way it is.
We can change our course at anytime and we always get to choose.
The Secret?
As much as we think at the time we “just woke up” feeling like this, that is not the case. We have been spiralling out of control for a while and we made a choice to ignore it until we couldn’t anymore.
We need to take time everyday to release the tension and refill our cups full of love, clarity, value and gratitude. Otherwise we continue to take sips and offer other people a drink thinking it’s a bottomless cup but it’s not. We are not robots we have to refuel because we can not run on empty.
What seemed like a spanner into my nicely organised week was really a giant wake up call to stop and refuel. A reminder that being on a road to self discovery and being present in everyday is a work in progress that needs constant love and attention.
I am grateful that I have the courage, the heart and the dedication to tell myself to shut the fuck up and make the choice to live a brighter today.
and thought what the hell am I doing with my life.
I feel stressed that every “thing” was organised then at the drop of a hat some “thing” happens and my nicely planned week turns to shit, I begin to think bad things about people and people are thinking bad things about me. Why am I crying……again?
Why are these people saying things about me and why wasn’t I invited…am I out of the loop?
God I feel like shit and why am I yelling at my children?
My head feels fuzzy and I feel like each step I take to so hard and it weighs a tonne.
Why is my ear burning are they talking about me again….why?
Excuse me why I tell myself to pull my fucking head in.
Could I possibly judge myself, criticise myself and put myself down anymore?
If I listened to my head and what my mind was telling today I would soon spiral out of control and dive into a gigantic pool of depression.
We ALL wake up some days and we feel like this and our minds are making us feel bad. At this point we have a choice.
- We can say “OMG it’s going to be a crap day” and remind ourselves all day of how tired we are, how insecure, insignificant, worthless and think what the hell am I doing with my life?” We could do that….that would be the easy solution.
- Or we can stop make our children comfortable, safe & happy then go and find a quiet room in the house and just close you eyes and breathe. Just take one breath at a time, let the thoughts pass through your mind don’t judge them just let them pass until you have no thoughts and you focus on one breath at a time. Now focus on the energy your body the feeling….not your mind let that go. Think about your main energy source, I always feel it in my stomach but everyone draws their energy from a different place. Doesn’t matter where it is as long as it isn’t in your head. Go for a run and let it all go just focus on putting one foot in front of the other.
The latter is harder however it is much more satisfying and it takes more control. It is only for people who want to change and be a better person and not settle for feeling shitty and thinking that’s the way it is.
We can change our course at anytime and we always get to choose.
The Secret?
As much as we think at the time we “just woke up” feeling like this, that is not the case. We have been spiralling out of control for a while and we made a choice to ignore it until we couldn’t anymore.
We need to take time everyday to release the tension and refill our cups full of love, clarity, value and gratitude. Otherwise we continue to take sips and offer other people a drink thinking it’s a bottomless cup but it’s not. We are not robots we have to refuel because we can not run on empty.
What seemed like a spanner into my nicely organised week was really a giant wake up call to stop and refuel. A reminder that being on a road to self discovery and being present in everyday is a work in progress that needs constant love and attention.
I am grateful that I have the courage, the heart and the dedication to tell myself to shut the fuck up and make the choice to live a brighter today.